My lil Bossy Boy

My lil boy is turning 2-years in 2 months time! Before even being a 2-years old toddler, 12-years old adolescent or a 20-years old young adult, my lil boy is a lil Bossy Boy!
Besides being a perfectionist (just like mummy), he always want to boss everyone around. With his ability to speak short phrases without any proper grammar in using the preposition and conjunction he will just shoot his instructions. Being the lil Bossy boy, he addresses himself as "Max" and started commenting, pin-pointing and requesting everyone especially us!
He uses phrases such as:

1. Max clothes
2. Mummy-milk-milk car (Meaning - He wants mummy to feed him milk while holding to his car).
   
3. Uh-Oh! No more lights!
4. Uh-Oh! Close (Meaning - we have to close the drawer or cupboard or the door properly after opening them).
5. On lights
6. Yes, stairs (Meaning - Yes, I want to go downstairs /upstairs).
7. Yes, Pi-Pi (Meaning - Yes, I want to watch Pingu).
8. Take! Take! Take! (While pointing at anything he wants and request us to take it for him)
   

Obviously if any of his instructions are not being full-filled, he will definitely:

1. Scream!
2. Whine
3. Throw tantrum by lying down on the floor and roll around

It's not easy to control his tantrum throwing although we tried ignore, distract or substitute. Sometimes he will give-in but most of the time he is just being our Lil Bossy Boy!

No more baby

It was the 6th of September when I went for the O&G check up after a week of spotting and leakage. The nurse in Klinik Ibu dan Anak advised me to get a scan from the O&G. I have never felt so anxious while waiting and since I could sense that something is not right about this pregnancy, I felt even more anxious. I can only pray...
When I was called into the Gynecologist room, I told the whole situation to her and up to the examination bed to get my scan. The 1st scan (abdomen scan) failed to trace the fetus's heartbeat and it was confirmed by the 2nd scan through the virginal. My heart dropped upon hearing this and I was ALONE! The gynecologist said I need to do a D&C immediately to avoid any infection since the fetus has died in 7 weeks old although through her scan it showed 8th week.
I cried when I called hubby but what needed to be done, need to be done fast. I signed the consent letter and then admitted.
The process was fast! It happened just like a blink of eyes - when I was conscious, it was DONE. My baby has gone! I was too tired to think or be sad about it... what I could do is just talked about the future plan with hubby as i lay down in the ward. And my mind was thinking about my lil Maximus. I miss him so much at the moment and wanted to hold him close in my arms.
It's just a feeling of loosing something precious and I guess Maximus is the one whom I hold preciously. But God is good...and He is good all the time.
Through this time of trial, I cling unto Him for His Mighty strength. I found strength in Him... thus I was able to control my emotion. When I went home, I has the comfort of Maximus, hubby and also my mother. It's a feeling for warm and secure.
Late at night, we had our bed-time bonding with Maximus. Low and behold, he uttered the word "No more baby'" and it surprised us! I guess my lil guy here know what has happened. He was aware or somehow in his spirit he was connected to us.
Well... I was relief when he uttered those words and it seems a confirmation to me that I have to accept this fact. So i surrender it to God and let him plan for our next one.